The closer I get to having all of my dreams come true in the modern world, the more my heart cries out for escape from it all.
This week I am supposed to find out the direction of the next 5-10 years of my life. I have a business loan on the horizon, a paycheck that will enable me to get a HOME for my family. A real place. A permanent place.
It’s everything I have been working for.
And suddenly I just want to run away. I want to scoop up my family, and drive into the deepest part of the forest and just disappear from modern life.
I want to start with a tent or a shed and sacks of flour and sugar and little else.
I want to forage and cut down the trees to build our home.
I want to hunt and fish and live off the land.
(All things my family is capable of, by the way).
I want to listen to the animals and watch my children invent games with nothing more than their own minds and the sticks and stones around them.
I long for it.
I couldn’t manage it this year. I couldn’t manage the funding soon enough to get away for a road trip, much less a permanent piece of land somewhere.
But I long for it. I really do.
Instead of getting depressed, I decided to take action. I realize that I cannot simply uproot my family. I cannot pull my children from their community, their school, away from grandparents they love. If we moved, it would have to be in stages, summers spent building a home on some land while we rent a home in their school district.
My way forward is the responsible way, the way of the hearth, Brighid’s way.
My first action was to make a money oil. I wasn’t thrilled with any of the “recipes” in my spell books, so I looked on up online and discovered an awesome resource in Noah Tempestarii. He is a kindred spirit making connection with Deity practical and accessible. Check him out.
Anyway, his money oil way simple and inspired, containing herbs I agreed with.
With this oil, I am going to do a money spell tonight in the glow of the waxing moon.
As the moon grows, so will my income.
I am not asking to get rich quick or to take from anyone. I am refocusing my efforts on earning and drawing money to my efforts.
I don’t think money solves everything, but if I am to exist in this world, I must operate within it.